Growing up, I didn’t to like babies, especially crying babies. It was either crying babies or dirty diaper baby or drooling baby or something awful like that till my Mom had my two little baby sisters, especially the last one. Awwwwww 🙂 I still flush all over just thinking about her even when she’s a tall glass of creamy goodness now. We call each other soul mates. Like seriously guys, we are. It’s weird. We even finish each other’s sentences. Anyway, back to the subject.
So my Mom had my baby sisters and I fell in love with babies, well, my babies. With or without the crying, I was always mommy to them. I looked forward to having children of my own so much that I told my Mom I couldn’t wait. I didn’t understand why she slapped me when I said that. But thinking about it now, maybe she wasn’t seeing it my way. She probably was focusing on the act you do that leads to pregnancy. Hmm. Anyway, so I had that longing until I watched this documentary once on TV about a woman delivering a baby and I cried out so much and cursed. I couldn’t imagine going through that but here I am. God has been kind to me. I’m a Mommmmmmmy. 🙂
I wanted more to be a Mommy than to be married. Did I just say that out loud? Sorry hon. But of course, I wanted to do it the right way. I knew I would give more attention to my children once they started to come but the experience in actuality is more beautifully indescribable at that moment when I birthed my son.
God is indeed awesome. The pain, the labor, the anxiety, all that was daunting but I knew I would carry my baby in my arms in a few hours and when I did, not even the effect of the epidural in my system could stop me from forcing a sit-up in just a few hours.
I remember a friend of mine congratulating me while asking me if I would do it all over again. I answered an emphatic YES because when your baby curls his tiny hands around your one finger and smiles at you even when you’re not sure he understands the movement on his lips and in his eyes, you know it was worth it. They say you forget the pain of childbirth after you see your baby. Maybe, I can’t say that but pain or no pain, childbirth changed my life. Being a Mommy, sleepless nights till date and all, I wouldn’t trade it for the world.